Well after this weekend, I am now back to my routine. One job, come home, play with Mi Mi, Cook, Clean, Sleep and a little blogging. And I am so happy with that. For a certain time period I really wanted to get a second job, but after this weekend I said if I did it would have to be a lot lower key than retail. ALOT!! I was exhausted after working both jobs this weekend, and coming home to a child it was too much to do, but needless to say.... I MADE IT THROUGH!! AND I BOUGHT NOTHING FROM THE SECOND JOB!!! YAY ME!!!!!
While doing the second job thing, I began to remember just how working in that retail environment affected me. I ALWAYS felt the need to spend, either to keep up with my fellow department managers, or to have my team respect me more (and may I say that the clothes don't get the respect) and it was just a big headache. Just being there over the weekend, everyone had on the Tory Burch, and Sam Edelman sandals and flats and I just got the itch. The itch to spend to keep up appearances, and make it seem as if I was doing so good. JUST FOR A FRONT. But I was able to hold it all in, and in all honestly I heard Suze O denying me from everything I wanted to get, which was indeed a good thing. Over the weekend I saw my Dad who gave me a little money which I used to pay down my Best Buy card! Only 78 dollars to go then on to Nordstrom!! So I really felt good, not buying And paying down my debt. It took a lot of courage but I made it through.
Friends?? How many of us have them??
Okay,
So I am still searching for a new group of friends, ones who are on the same spiritual path, financial path and who have accomplished more than me in these categories. My one co-worker who has so many good qualities as a friend, but also so many bad ones that I am torn between our relationship. She is a very materialistic young woman, who is 5 years older than I am, also has a daughter, but she just says things sometimes that are red flags to me to escape, run and jump before I am in too deep. But since she is a co worker and on some levels she is positive I just don't know what to do. We work together and I don't want to completely shut her off but I have a hard time balancing my friendships. I either give them my all or nothing AT ALL! So please if their is any advice any one can give please share.
I think just in writing this I realize I can keep her as an aquaintance. Talk to her about work info and that's it. I have to draw the line... I will keep you posted on my progress:)
Gratitude Entry
Since I have been away for a few days here are a few things that have touched my gratitude heart lately.
- The doctors that treat Princess Mi Mi. They are amazing
- Going back to my old job on my Own terms :)
- Lunch with my dad and big sis
- Staying in all day just to relax
- Noticing and being aware of all that is great, that has come and will come into my life
- Those unexpected phone calls from people who you know love you and even if you have been seperated for a long time, still feel the EXACT SAME WAY
Lots of love folks
M.I.$$
